<I decided many moons ago that I was gonna tackle my issues with weight. My goal was to get to a healthy weight and to become a mindful eater. When I say mindful, I m talking about being present and aware of what I m eating and why.
I have spent most of my life small... a size 4 or 6. My wedding dress didn't come in a small enough size so it had to be professionally altered. I have always worked out a little... walking but nothing to intense... like didn't even need a shower afterwards. At about 28 I started to gain weight. At my heaviest, I was a size 12! Some people look and feel good in a 12 but not me... I was miserable! About a year ago I started on my weight loss journey... I have come along way.
<I stopped weighing myself about 3 months ago. The number on that scale doesn't represent the me that I want to be. I am currently just enjoying that I am down another size since I stopped the scale obsession.
<I workout 4 to 6 days a week. This I do without fail. The working out has become sort of a thing that I look forward to. Over the summer and in the confines of our mobile mansion, I found it a real struggle to get in 4 days a week. I managed. The kids are back to school and I am making it a priority. During my Buti Yoga routine today, I caught a glimpse of some ab definition in the mirror and this made me freeze and stare. They are under the layers of terrible food choices and carrying babies.... I have abs!
<The mindful eating is something that haunts me every single day. I eat because I am happy, confused, bored, sad, silly, excited or whatever emotion I m having... I eat. It makes me frustrated that I must think about food all the time. I have read about learning hunger of your own body and only giving it the nutrients it needs but what if your body is saying Reese's, cake or sugary cereal. The truth is that I can't make cookies or brownies because I will eat all of them. I am not kidding... every last bite... in my belly. I have no control. Many times, I tell myself just eat them until they are gone so that you don't have to think about them anymore. Who does this? This is crazy... Right? Anyway... Today was a bad food day for me... Urg. I will work on being better tomorrow. A mindful eater.
<The mobile mansion turns upside down while I try to get a little exercise done outside...